refreshed

 i love those rainy autumn days when time seems to grow heavy. those days when you continue to wear your pajamas a little later in the morning, put a little extra honey on your toast and buy the five dollar latte to prolong the feeling. 

it's a parrot cup sort of day

big bear

well i forgot to bring the nikon, but managed a few photos with my cell phone. the weather was pleasantly cooler than forecasted, and very breezy by the lake. we had lunch, sat by the lake and took a nice walk around the village. michael worked overtime everyday last week trying to get the school's paper out on time, so it was great to have him for the entire day and relax a little.

audrey & daddy

fascinated by ducks

mommy got her pumpkin spice latte :)

delicious pumpkin autumny scarfed goodness

tomorrow michael's taking the day off work and we're driving up to big bear lake for audrey's first visit. i'm so excited because it's the first official day of autumn and i've been craving a pumpkin spice latte since the beginning of september! oh yum! it's been too hot lately for such an autumn brew. tomorrow it's only supposed to reach 65 degrees which means: jackets?! and scarves!? and an adorable bundled up baby!? and crunchy orange and yellow leaves!? and a wonderful hubbs to walk hand in hand with!? and delicious pumpkin autumny scarfed goodness.

she's got mad skillz

i've never seen such a small baby sitting in a cart before. she didn't want to sit in her sling and my arms were burning so i thought i'd sit her down to see what she'd do. she loved it! i think i'm going to get her one of those shopping cart buddies to sit in because the germ factor makes my skin crawl a little bit.

i snuck the peet's coffee in the shot just for you valerie :)

what a difference a year makes

about this time last year michael & i had just gotten back from our rejuvenating vacation in chicago a month after the news of a fourth miscarriage. it's also the same time i found out i was pregnant, again.

i was scared. i knew i was going to have another miscarriage. and why not? nothing had changed, i was still damaged. i was scared of the toll this was going to take on my body. two dead babies in two months. i was scared of the toll this was going to take on my faith.

as i type this, audrey is nursing in my arms and drifting off to sleep. she'll be four months old on the fifteenth. this little baby fought for her life. she won over the same affliction which took the lives of her brothers & sisters. she's our little survivor. our little miracle. our answer to tearful prayer.

we drove to the beach yesterday (audrey's first time!) and stopped at corner bakery in anaheim hills for breakfast. we ate breakfast every morning we were in downtown chicago at a corner bakery down the street from our hotel. i loved drinking my hazelnut cream coffee, (BEST cafe coffee ever,) watching business people hurry by with their briefcases and shooing pigeons away from my breakfast panini. mornings are still my favorite time of day.

i ate the other half of my breakfast panini already. oh yes, it's that good. :)

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