Saturday, April 24, 2010

milk drunk

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Saturday, April 17, 2010

audrey lynn baker


born on april 15, 2010 at 11:35 at night. 7 lbs 2 oz & 21 inches.

i'll post our birth story soon, hopefully. we're completely devoted on learning how to breast feed right now. :)

oh, my cervix & i are still not on speaking terms, yet.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

meltdown over

okay so, after a few days my rainy day optimism is finally returning. in a hormonal meltdown to (a very understanding!) michael yesterday, i confessed that i'm really not a patient person. he didn't seem too shocked by the news actually haha! i probably just need to learn at least one more important lesson before audrey gets here.

i'm scheduled for a non-stress test appointment this afternoon to see how little audrey's doing and have my 3-day follow up and possible 2nd induction appointment tomorrow. we're just going to see how it goes this time. expecting life in general to perform in a timely and structured schedule is pretty arrogant really. if anything, at least i got to wear my maternity peacoat one more time for possibly the last rainy day of the year.

i still hate my cervix though ;)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

unmovable


imagine that after 23 hours at the hospital you come back home still pregnant. the reality is ten times worse. hopefully i can go into labor on my own in the next few days. i really hate my cervix right now.

my battered post IV swollen arm. more painfull than the contractions, actually.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

it's d-day, go team!

today i'm scheduled to be induced at the hospital where i'll later meet my little audrey. it feels a little odd to be so excited about willingly going to a place where i know i'm going to experience the worst pain of my life, but c'mon, it's going to be so worth it! michael and i have gone over our "game plan," packed every logical item we can think of (probably a few illogical ones too) and are expecting a long wait.

i've been telling myself all morning that i'm totally calm and cool, but i really can't ignore the little butterflies throwing up in my stomach. i remember this old familiar feeling from high school when i was getting ready for a big race in cross country. i remember my strong steady breaths as i walked up to the line with 25 other girls and my stomach churning a little as i waited for the bang of the starting pistol. i'm not nervous about the pain, just the endurance needed for my planned pitocin-induced natural birth. i'm hoping to think back to my cross country training today when my body starts to tire and my determination starts to waiver. the grueling "magic" workouts. the mud. running our regular 3 miles with a few sets of 8 sand hills after. the gusty winds. the hail. the confusion of long races. i'm hoping all this will give me an edge. that's what i'm telling the nauseous butterflies anyway. :)

i'm super happy that i finished my baby blanket in time :) it's not professional quality by any means, but it's so very soft.